Wednesday, November 9, 2011

November 9, 2011

It is with great sorrow that I sit here and write this entry. Yesterday, Alexander began a new journey.  Last week, the doctors informed us that the continued stress on his lungs has put increased pressure on his heart. Simply put, his heart had been compensating for what his lungs has been unable to do. Over the past six months, his heart has been working hard, but now the pressures on his heart had become too high. On Friday, after a long talk with the doctors, we were told that these pressures could not continue for more than a few weeks. We (his father and I) spent all weekend with him. We spend many hours holding him and smiling with him. He had a wonderful few days. Yesterday, his heart rate began to drop. He was telling us that it was his time to go. He didn't suffer. He was surrounded by many who loved him including his mom, dad, sister, grandma, grandpa, and nurses. After some time in our arms, he let us know that it was ok... and he left to begin his new journey. It all happened very quickly, and knowing that he didn't suffer is the most important thing to us all.
Alexander touched many lives in his six months here. He taught us more lessons than I ever knew were possible. We would never trade a moment of time that he blessed our lives with, and we will miss him terribly until we meet again. We thank you for all of the love, prayers, and support throughout this long journey.

46 comments:

  1. I am so sorry to hear of Alexander's passing. He is a beautiful boy, and very obviously adored. I'm glad you were able to spend a few good days with him. xox

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  2. So many tears for this precious little boy. xoxo Abiding with you and praying for peace in your hearts.

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  3. Words cannot express how deeply sorry I am for your family on Alexander's passing. Your family will be in my prayers. (((hugs)))

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  4. I am so sorry for the loss of you son.

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  5. My heart is breaking for you and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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  6. What a beautiful, precious boy. Praying for your sweet family. I came to know about Alexander through another blog, thank you for letting strangers see a glimpse into your journey.

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  7. I'm so, so sorry for the loss of Alexander. My heart breaks for you, many thoughts and much love to you. <3 Alexander<3

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  8. Kristin Binder has told us about your sweet Alexanders struggles..ive been praying for him and I am so so sorry to hear of his passing...May you be wrapped in his love and memories to get you through this...there are no words <3 alexander <3

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  9. Words can't express how sorry I am for the loss of your little boy. Sending prayers to you and your family. There really are no words...

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  10. So sorry to hear about the loss of your beautiful baby boy.....in time you will meet again. Always cherish the time you were able to be together. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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  11. I am so, so, so sorry to learn about the passing of your precious little boy. I just don't have any words, but my heart is heavy for you and I will keep your family in my prayers. Just so, so, sorry....

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  12. I am so sorry for your loss. He is a sweet angel now and is no longer suffering. My thoughts and prayers are with him and your family. Rest now sweet boy.

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  13. I am so so so so sorry for your loss! I just know my daughter was there to usher Alexander to Heaven to play with all of the baby angels...that ladybug in the picture is exactly like the one we have for her. Praying for you and your family during these unthinkable days!

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  14. I am so very sorry. Rest now beautiful Alexander xx

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  15. I came here from Kristen's blog. I'm so sorry. He was a cute little guy and I know he was very loved.

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  16. Sending you lots of hugs and prayers.

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  17. Praying for you and your family. God is where our strength comes from during these hard times in life. I know that our Angels are having the best time in Heaven. Sending (((HUGS))) your way!!!

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  18. My heart aches for you and your family. Alexander is such a beautiful boy! I will be praying for y'all! Much, much love! xoxo

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  19. I'm so sorry you had to join our baby loss group. I've been following your blog since being introduced by once a mother. You are wonderful strong people that have been through so much. Alexander was a strong little boy and I thank you for allowing us to get to be a part of his life. I will continue to pray for you and your family during this difficult time and I hope you find peace in knowing your sweet Alexander is now among a blessed group of little angels.

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  20. I am so sorry to hear your news. I am thinking of you all at this time and for the time to come. You battled a tremendous battle and I hope that you have lots of support around you esp now. Massive hugs.

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  21. I'm so sorry... Hugs to you. I'm sure your little one will be enjoying his life in heaven, with nothing to suffer. The only thing is he will miss you.
    Hugs to you again.

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  22. I'm so sorry- your son is loved by so many- prayers to you and your family!

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  23. My heart breaks for you today. Alexander's story touched so many people. I keep your family in my prayers. Enjoy Heaven baby boy!

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  24. I am so heartbroken for your family. Such a beautiful boy.

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  25. What a strong and sweet boy! I am praying for your family. I came to know about Alexander through another blog, thank you for letting strangers see a glimpse into your journey. I am so heartbroken for you and so wish we met in another way. Prayers!

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  26. My heart breaks as I read this! I am so sorry you have to know this pain. It is hard. I am praying for your family during this difficult time. Much prayer and love sent your way

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  27. Sweet little angel... I am so sorry for your loss. The tears won't stop flowing. I am here from another blog and we've never met, but I want to tell you what a beautiful, beautiful boy he was.

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  28. I have been following your story for a while, and wanted to tell you, from the bottom of my heart, how sorry I am for your loss. Thinking of you during this time. I'm so, so sorry.

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  29. I am so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful boy who will be missed.

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  30. What a fighter he was. I am so sorry for your loss.

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  31. I'm so very, very sorry. Alexander was such a little fighter. I'm sure underneath your heartache you are so proud of your boy!

    Sending you deepest sympathies, and much love and support as you begin this next phase of your journey...

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  32. I can't begin to say how sorry I am. I wish there was something I could say to help you. I've been thinking about you and your brave little baby every day since I found your blog. You're right. He touched many lives and, he will continue to do so, as people come here and read the story of his life. He was one of the bravest little babies ever born and, you have been so incredibly strong, supporting him through his battle. It'll take so much more bravery and strenghth to get through the darkness and emptyness without him. My heart is breaking for you.

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  33. I am so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you.

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  34. I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Alexander. Though your heart is breaking, I hope you find comfort in knowing Alexander felt no pain as he left this Earth and is now in the arms of Jesus. My brother was 6 months old when he passed as well and my mom always said he was a little rosebud in the Lord's garden. I believe Alexander is as well. God bless your family, I will certainly be praying for you and the family.

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  35. I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby boy. I know that he knew pure, pure love while he was here, and will continue to on his journey now. Thinking of all of you.

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  36. It's not right and it's not fair. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Many prayers coming your way.

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  37. I am so sorry for your loss of Alexander. I have no other words other than to wish you peace on this journey of grief. xx

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  38. I am at a loss for words. I was pulling and praying for your little guys. I wish you find peace somehow...someway. Know that he will always be looking down on you.

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  39. Thinking about you guys daily.

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  40. Thank you Alexander and your mum for touching our lives....xo

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  41. I too am so sorry for your loss. Your family will be in our prayers. You have many difficult days ahead, but your precious son will be guiding you. Take care. Love and Peace Nana to an angel.

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  42. I am so sorry. Alexander and all of you will be in my thoughts.

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  43. I came here from Kristen's blog. I am sorry, so very sorry that your beautiful son died. I wish you so much love and support in the coming days and weeks and months.

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  44. What a beautiful baby boy... so much love to you and your precious angel. I came from Once A Mother's blog... please know there are many of us thinking of you and your family, babyloss mamas and otherwise, holding you in our hearts and remembering your Alexander with you xxxxxxxx

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  45. I am so so sorry for your loss. Alexander has touched more lives than most of us will in a lifetime. He truly was an angel, and you are blessed to be his parents. He is yours and you are his. You'll be in my prayers.

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  46. I am so so sorry for your loss. I kept coming back to see some new, and now I have found this.

    Little Alexander was a figter and I know that he will watch over you.

    xo

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